I think most people start off in the blogging world spilling it all out there, throwing caution to the wind, feeling the freedom of expression and the relief in the online community. Their readership grows, they’re emboldened by their platform. And they way overshare, or mis-say something dramatically, and the internet arrows aim their way, resulting in a clamming up, a cautious blog revamp, possibly even web silence forever.
I seem to have gone the other direction. Partly personality, partly in protection of my family, I have always written this blog in a heavily guarded way. I’m tired of that and tired of running scared from made-up internet demons.
From the beginning, I have loved blogging. It gives me a strangely immense amount of joy to recommend lipstick. Really. And in these early years of parenting, Mommy Mondays have been a godsend to me. But what I meant for this blog to be has never quite transpired, and this is almost entirely born from my own fear.
I named this blog Hollywood Housewife because that is literally where I stand at this moment in my life, but also as a tongue-in-cheek contrast to the cartoon version of who one might picture and who I actually am. Almost every woman I know is a conundrum of thoughts about this season’s fashion and the national healthcare system. The shallow and the deep. Our nuances, our ability to go from discussing one to the other seamlessly is what makes women so special. My best friends and I sip wine and talk about both, easily. Interchangeably. Regularly.
So while I’ve managed to cover (and re-cover, and then post about it again just one more time) some of my fun, satisfyingly skin-deep interests, I’ve kept a lot of the real essence of Laura out of this blog. Mostly this was by design. And I’m done with that.
I’m not eager to sink my own battleship. I’m not going to come out swinging. But some things here at HH need to shift ever so slightly in order for me to continue doing it well, or continue doing it at all. I’m not entirely sure what it all means, but I have some ideas in my head. I’m open to (positive) suggestions, and I do have a list of topics that people have emailed me about over the years, things that I was fine to respond to personally, but that I never crafted as a blog post.
In addition, I’m starting a monthly newsletter. So often blogging feels like I’m shouting into a vacuum, and I like the idea of speaking directly into inboxes. The monthly newsletter will have all original content, stuff I won’t have posted here or anywhere else. I’m not exactly sure what it will be, either, but I’m excited about the possibilities. If you already subscribe to the HH posts via email, you’re already on this list. If you feel like one monthly email from me is more your style, you can sign up here.
In January, I will have been blogging four years. The profile pictures have changed, the medium has changed, I have changed. After hundreds and hundreds of posts, I’m still finding my voice. I can’t find adequate words to express my gratitude that you’ve joined me on this journey. I look forward to making it a place we both still enjoy.