I'm doing this weird things where I'm saying "no" to stuff. After I wrote about chasing achievement, which happened to be during our slow summer at the lake, it forced me to not only notice how much I cram into our lives, but to change it. (Writing on the internet keeps you accountable in these ways.)
So now that we're home, I'm trying to stay as slow and deliberate about my time as I was when we were in a pure resting and healing mode. We're back to a routine (and will be more so when preschool starts for both kids next month), and there are more To Dos here in real life, but in saying no and moving slow, I've found a lot more pockets of time that I used to blaze through.
There's more time to rest my brain by reading or watching (good) tv. There's more time to do little things that no one else will notice, like cleaning out the junk drawer or cooking something new. I feel better when I live more slowly, so why is it so hard? It's taking practice, I guess. The allure to DO and ACHIEVE and POW through the day is still strong.
A few times this week I did do a lot more, like an afternoon full of frenzied errands and then hosting friends and their kids for a brunch that lasted hours. Both were enjoyable and productive in their own way, but I felt strangely depleted afterward. I know this is partially my introverted tendency, and partially just a change of pace (going both ways), but it was irrational how much it sucked out me. I felt like one of those people who give up gluten or sugar and then when they have just a little bit, they describe the headache and nausea. Sometimes that feels like an eye-roll, but I'm getting it now. Except with time and energy instead of food.
Speaking of food, we're 8 days into the eat-at-home challenge, and the kids and I are kinda climbing the food walls. With only one teeny cheat (ice cream after gymnastics), we've eaten every single meal at home. I'm flat surprised at how much I think about (sorta dream out) restaurant food right now. Even fast food. It's so convenient! And tasty! But we're stickin' to it. About halfway through and this has been a worthy challenge.
I went with a friend to see Boyhood this week. Have you heard of this? It's a movie made with the same set of actors in a family (mom & dad, son & daughter) over a twelve year time span. There's not much plot here, it's a little like watching someone's home movies, but it is fascinating film making. Watching all four family members change physically (especially the two kids) is really quite eye-opening. I won't spoil it for you, but it's definitely worth a watch.
This week on the HH facebook page I let people pick my outfit for this weekend's VMAs. It arrived last night and I think it'll be perfect. I'll post pictures from the VMAs over on Instagram and will be live tweeting what I can over on twitter.
For your weekend reading pleasure:
- Saw these insane brownies while watching The Pioneer Woman's show on Food Network.
- What to wear with a plain white tee. (Mom Generations)
- While trying to understand better the situation in Ferguson, Missouri, I came across this. 11 Eye-Opening facts about America's Militarized Police Forces.
- 10 Things you didn't know your Mac could do. (Esquire)
- This is controversial, and something I hope to address more on the blog in the coming weeks. But I am proud of the governor of my home state of Oklahoma for supporting the legalization of CBD, an element of marijuana, for medical purposes in children, specifically epilepsy.
- Morgan is a good friend of mine, but I was so interested in seeing her mornings through the lens of Mommy Shorts. What a cool series.
I'll be heading to the VMAs this Sunday with a friend and (hopefully) enjoying a lazy Saturday with the family.